It's been a while, I have tried to blog in so many ways. Tried starting a new one multiple times, but I just couldn't. I can't get into a routine like 17 year old me could. I mean, she was a lot more "free". I really regret the fact I didn't do much with my free time before.
Anyway, here I am and I am slightly depressed. Over the last year, my mood has been insane. I was manic, then depressed, then manic again and now you can kinda see where we are heading: DEPRESSION. Woo...
I hate this. I feel so down, I have been crying more and feeling so tired. Food wise, I want to eat, but I am restricting food again. I feel so desperate for a puke but I can't - instead I am at the gym now, wanting to absolutely smash it, but my body physically can't go the way I want it to. My flatmates are wonderful about everything, but I feel like I can't let them know the extent of how I am feeling.
Fortunately I have my psychiatrist appointment coming up and got a shit ton of happy pills. Guess I just need a bit of TLC atm!