Yesterday I went to Stratford to watch a modern adaption of Antigone. I was disappointed because Roy Williams' take on it meant gangs and I thought that was so predictable, which took away the enjoyment of it - something many of my peers agree with. But my actual trip to the theatre was nice: hung out with friends; uncovered my friend's spy abilities and resisted the urge to buy a burger. I did, however, eat a ton of prawn crackers that weren't even mine. Whoops!
Many months ago (well it feels like many months) I posted a blog about living with Depression. Check it our HERE. I don't know why I used caps there, I guess it just looked pretty; nothing to do with you or anything. In this post I basically spoke about how difficult I was finding things and that as well as it being a psychological illness, it became very physical too. From not being able to get out of bed; to eating poorly and hurting myself, my body simply couldn't cope and everything seemed incredibly bleak.
Well, it's now February and although I am still prone to the odd down day, most of the time I feel smashing. Yes, I'm in bed quite a lot and I sleep more than I should - but it's not because I feel down or hopeless, it's simply down to late nights; hard work and laziness. I can work out the difference between the two because during my early diagnoses and before, I slept because I felt incredibly down and didn't want to do anything. Whereas, when I'm in bed now it's because I want to and I'm able to get out and look forward to the day. I set myself goals with my sleep - if I do nap, I have an alarm to wake me up so I can get out and do things. Sure, I do press snooze sometimes, but who always turns it off and jumps out and sings to the birds? Exactly! As for my eating, I've noticed a great improvement. I have started to eat regularly now - before I would either attempt starving myself or eat so much that it would lead to purging. Now I make sure I have a well balanced diet and I can honestly say I enjoy my meals. Yes, sometimes I'm aware I have eaten too much and feel guilt, but it has reduced a lot from before. I mean, check out these funky dishes!
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